redrobin9

i hardly post anything but  right now i feeling horrible, disgusted, disappointed,  sad, enraged,  heartbroken and so many other emotion i cant describe to see animals tortured in that way i wont say what beause im crying as i write this ive sent you all emails about it but i had to say this; how can people be so damn horrible to animals isnt it enough that theyre killed beause we eat them NO kill them for the fur god not only that but make them suffer for it skinning an animal still alive. i mean i they yhave no heart so see the animal begging them to stop god im still crying. its times like this that i think we are monster horrible monster selfish monster anyone wearing a fur coat is a cold blooded monster.  calling someone an animal is an insult to the animal. do people actually think animals have no feeling what they cant fucking feel anything god. 
then i saw that fucking marine throw that poor puppy down a hill i mean why, why would anyone do that even my bother thought that was wrong. still crying ..... i cant believe how horrible we are and worst we turn our backs saying that there JUST animals. still crying but going to stop i just  really needed to get it out of my chest i couldnt take it anymore 
anyways bye bye

sorry if it doesnt make sense

ok basically happy b-days ona and olanda kisses from boma she told me to pass it on 
and happy b day from me althought i think its late sorry forgot when your bday is or was 
i dont have my planner today anyways love u both

ok this may sound very weird to all of you who read this but i been searching for my self and who i am and well this is what i found
1 is that im a very kind person which to me sounds ridiculous cause i dont think i kind at all.
2 is that i treasure my friends and family which i can believe i love you very much and if anybody did anything to you i would hurt not just hurt then but crush them because killing would never be enough for my vengence.
3 is i believe in God yes i believe in him whether i folllow his word or not is something completely different.
4 is that im afraid of commintment i always thought that i rejected guys because i did feel anything for them but it turns out i fear marriage. fear the chains of love and even when it come to work or anything else.
5 is that im a happy person and i make people happy which i laways felt and really still feel i dont .
6 is that i hold grudges i do i still havent forgiving my family for making my mother cry i really hate them for it, it weird because i always thought that i had forgiven them but i didnt not truly.
7 i dont like being alone i want someone in my life which contradicts my fear but deep down thats my wish
so they are many other some i already knew about my self but didnt know why and other i had no idea until they came up anyways if you agree or disagree please tell im still searching for my true self it would help a lot to know how you feel about me too.
i know it sounds corny but i need it
for those of you who read this thank you it means a lot to me you know cause it long.

today is my birthday 
didnt really do anything fun 
but an uncle called to say happy birthday 
and mom said it too
and daddy poured cold water on me and said it too
so it was ok 
 im content with it

im going to mexico in like 6 days 
that means that i wont be going to anime expo. 
so even though i really wanted to go to with you guys, i really want to see my cousins more than anything in the world. so hope you guys have fun and get extra drunk for me.
hope you guys have fun and tell me all about when i get back.

OK SO I WENT TO WORK YESTERDAY AND LEFT MY BACKPACK IN THE ROOM SO I CAN GO TO WORK. EVERYTHING WAS COOL I WAS WORKING AND I WAS PRETTY COOL WHEN IT WAS TIME TO GO AND FOUND THAT MY GAMEBOY WASNT IN MY BACKPACK AND I REMEMBER THAT I HAD BROUGHT IT SO I LOOK FOR FRANTACTLY WHEN I REALIZE ITS GONE. SOMEBODY HAD STOLEN MY GAMEBOY WHILE I WAS WORKING AND WHAT WORSE IS THAT IT WAS SOMEBODY I WORK WITH. WHEN I TOLD THE MANEGERS THAT IT WAS STOLEN THEY SAID IT WASNT THE FIRST TIME IT HAS HAPPEN. APPEARANTLY SOMEONE STOLE THIS GIRL JEWELRY AND ONE OF THE COOKS GOT HER CHECK STOLEN WHICH HAD $500 ON IT. IM THINKING WHY HAVENT THEY CALL THE FUCKING POLICE BUT WHAT CAN I DO, I DONT KNOW WHO DID IT. IN A WAY IT WAS MY FAULT FOR LEAVING MY BACKPACK OUT IN THE OPEN BUT I SAW THAT EVERYONE LEFT THEIR STUFF THERE TOO. IT STILL PISSED ME OFF BECAUSE GAMEBOYS COST MONEY SO IT REALLY FUCKING SUCK AND I WANT MY GAMEBOYS BACK ITS ONLY FAIR.
I JUST THINK ITS FUCKING MESS UP AND HE OR SHE SHOULD BE PUNISHED NOT JUST FOR ME BUT FOR EVERYONE THAT WORK THERE.

i dont know how many of you watch MTV but i was checking out the channels when i came across what look like tylor(dont know how to spell or say name it the singing on)on TRL promoting his new CD. it was him and blake and some other guy i don't know. weird.

sorry for the lateness had other thing in my plate

10 years ago
i thought you could get pregnat by being hugged from a person of the opposite sex
love power rangers
wanted to be a gangsta from the hood
got straight A's in most of my subjects
saw a pig being killed and became a vegetarian

5 years ago
wanted to get married and have 6 children 3 boys 3 girls
life revolve around boys
hated my mother with a passion
understood the power of my boob and used them to my advantage

1 years ago
found the career i want have
believe most men are scum(but love my guy friends you guys a cool)
became atheist
realized how much i love my family(corny i know)

yesterday
ditched
realized i miss my friends old and new
took care of my grand ma
made flan with soy milk (it was good)

5 snacks i enjoy
hot cheetos
lucas
pico de callo
trail mix
strawberries with whip cream

5 songs i know all the word too
eres from cafe tacuba
most selena songs
boulevard of broken dreams
aladins arabian night
pokemon theme song

5 thing i would do w/100 dollars
buy mangas
buy anime
buy boots
save it for a long trip i been waiting for
buy jewlery

3 places i would runaway too
japan
mexico
france

1 thing i would never use
anything pink unless dared too

5 favorite shows
yu gi oh
who's line
gilmore girls
sex in the city
one piece

5 bad habits
procrastination
putting every thing in my mouth
interruprt conversations
lately lying
destroy everything i touch

5 biggest joys
rain
anime
music
my dogs
friends and family

5 fictional characters i would date
hatori from fruits basket
tasuki from fy
any johnny depp character tee hee
gaara i really like him from naruto
bakura from ygo

5 people to tag fro this survey
amber if she see this
margaret
julian
jennifer
i can't think of anyone else

my parent are thinking of going to mexico this december and really i want to go
actually i really desperately want to go and see my family
i have not seen then in five years and i really miss then so im crossing my fingers.

there a kid in my class(well his not a kid but he's younger than me so i call him kid)that said he knew ona and alonda he said he went to malibu high school when we were there and told to say hi for him to you guys his name is harry but i dont know his last name.

i working on this whole boyfriend thing hoping this guys into me he goes to my church so i think i'm going to ask him out wish me luck.

oh i side note i learn that onna means woman in japanese i was an easy word for me to memorize

you guys i soooooooooooo want i boyfriend right now i hated when i get like this but it's the truth i havent have a real boyfriend since high school 9 grade year
i mean i hook up with guys but usually there from somewhere else and i never see then again
usually it's a one time thing
i really want to be in a realtionship i think i ready
god i suck watch later i saying i dont want one or if someone asked i say no
im so stupid
whatever i just neede to take that off my chest

so i finished reading harry potter years one throught five and i cant wait till the next one the last book i read made me cry in the end. it was funny cause my dad was worried because i was crying and when i told he laughed and said i was stupid i guess i am in a way but i love it. i love crying and laughing when i read a book but most don't understand that
anyways can't wait to read the most recent one now
my brother want to see the movies which is weird cause it's not really his thing anyways whatever

i really like my classes this semester but i have the time really scattered which i really don't like on tue and thru i have a five hour gap from my health class to my jap class book always comes in handy in this kind situation


last note i was in church on saturday one cause i had nothing better to do i didn't work the weekend and two cause it was for thew youth only .it was the whole day so they had music, preaching and everything although i kind of whished my mom wasn't there.anyways i saw this great christian rock band thatmade me want to jump and eveything but my mom would give me weird looks and so i move. it was tight but i thing i did a the horn thing and im really hoping no one saw . but still it was tight
i bought the cd tooi was happy

hey i just wanted to thank those people who helped me in my time of need
that's julian and olanda if it werent for you i would have started crying out of anger so a million thanks to you too
my mom just got back from mexico and was saying that anime is the devil and i better throw it away she doesn't want to see it anymore so some poeple are holding for me for the time being thanx julian, caitlin , and lucina you help me alot IOU so if you need anything dont hasitate to ask

hey working on at the fair
although today is my day off happy i can relax
anyways working at the fair i don't like but i will make paying albert a lot faster i'm s there albert
anyways i have to see if i'm going to schoo this semster cause i really dont want to pay
thinking of taking french aussie
but i dont know
thinking of satring a new book but i still dont know
i think that it cya

some of my family from mexico came to visit and it's really great to see people from mexico since i was able to go
they cool and i love them they are awesome.

i think i did pretty well for a person that knew nothing i'll be happy with a C thank you very much but i hope i did better.

victory is mine
i finally pass the written test for my driver license it only took me 4 try pathetic right anyways un towards the next step.
if it wasn't for my uncle that i casually bump in to i would have headed home in failure so i thank him for telling me to do it again on the spot. oh and i pass it we only 2 wrong which is tottaly awesome.
right now is final week so i have nothing to do i have two finals and there both next week so i can just kick it this week yay
i bought a new wallet and i totally love it. it has a picture of beddy boop
can wait to use it.
i still have a lot to do but they are not that hard to accomplish
well that it

ok so i went and saw sin city i just love it my brother found it interesting too. he just didn't like that people always got hit in the nuts hee hee
anyways i want to go see kung fu hustle have you guys seen it. is it funny
anyways it was fun
i have less than 4 week of school and i find it going really slow. cya later

ok so i want to go to smc for a semester albert when does the semester start or when can i sign up help please and when is expo to see if i can go.

so i finallly decided i want to be an interpreter i know 2 languages and it would be 3 if i perfect my french and i want to learn japanesse so i might go to smc cause they have jap 1 here they only have conversation tottally sucks

oh and boma is back and here her name is maroon5star she has me as her contact but i'm too deppresing

i'm back in school and i feel is too soon
my friend from utah wanted to come over but she called on thursday and try to called each other but we keep missing
i call she not home she calls i can't answer
so now what do i do
anyways another person i been wanting to contact is albert
dude where are you at?
anyways are the budget cut affecting just the community colleges or also the uc's confused about that.